19-10-2003 01:45									#31
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Ahh, you probably wouldn't want to hear about it, but I've been HERE:




That guy down there is Tiesto.

	19-10-2003 01:46									#32
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quote: Originally posted by Zylka I did, it was the best thing I've done in my (thus starting) adult life, too. I'm not healed, but I have a good head start to life

	19-10-2003 01:53									#33
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Good on you - I bet that was an unbelievable show

Take advantage of your location, all the world's top hands spin there, it seems

	19-10-2003 01:58									#34
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Thanks. It was amazing, indeed.


So, what are you up to, now?

	19-10-2003 02:06									#35
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Basic organization of my surroundings and generally moving along slowly quite sedated. The music rolls off of my mind as if rain on waterproof. I realize it's time to move on somewhere else, as much as I love my family nothing has changed aesthetically and I'm getting used to near sterile living spaces

Getting over what I so desperately saw as potential for love, yet at the same time preparing for an eventual return to hopefully make it work (after growth and change). Self destructive behaviors don't all leave at once, I suppose

The world is a little bland, but direction for situation and medication is in mind. Time, time, time will tell - and we all have a lot of that, right?

	19-10-2003 02:07									#36
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Oh, and I guess in a more realistic sense... returning to a half assed semester to see if I can salvage grades out of what I've missed, and keeping to myself socially. Fun!

	19-10-2003 02:09									#37
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take your time, if that's what you need to get well. It seems that you're not well adjusted just yet.

	19-10-2003 02:10									#38
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quote: Originally posted by Spiffor I'm pretty fine thanks.

Duh, he was refering to Chirac as his favorite Frenchman!

quote: I was in a bad mood, I had a cold (that I may have transmitted), and I snored like hell. Let's just say that I was much more a dead weight rather than the MR. Nice Guy

*GASP!*

	19-10-2003 02:13									#39
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quote: Originally posted by Zylka Getting over what I so desperately saw as potential for love, yet at the same time preparing for an eventual return to hopefully make it work (after growth and change). Self destructive behaviors don't all leave at once, I suppose

"Love" is way overrated. At least, in the mening given of it in the TV, with all the lilies, the "I'm in wuuuuuuv" and such. You can pretty much love someone even if you keep your head on your shoulders.
Because of your past instability, I hope your next serious relationship will be rational, and that you'll genuinely care for your girlfriend, without trying to have the "I'm in wuuuuuuuv, the moon is pink " feeling. At least, don't believe such feelings are the model every true lover should follow.

(I don't know precisely about your previous understanding of love. I'm merely stating the understanding above is very bad for unstable people)

	19-10-2003 02:17									#40
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AHA! Now we see that the true Spiffor is steel-cold heartless machine.


That's what happens when you spend too much time in Germany, I guess.


Seriously, Spiff. I know that it's not realistic, but I am sure it happened to you, too.

	19-10-2003 02:17									#41
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quote: Originally posted by Spiffor "Love" is way overrated. At least, in the mening given of it in the TV, with all the lilies, the "I'm in wuuuuuuv" and such. You can pretty much love someone even if you keep your head on your shoulders. Because of your past instability, I hope your next serious relationship will be rational, and that you'll genuinely care for your girlfriend, without trying to have the "I'm in wuuuuuuuv, the moon is pink " feeling. At least, don't believe such feelings are the model every true lover should follow.

Right. And I know I was not yet in self defined love with this particular (girl), but I so desperately wanted and want it with her. She was just so beautiful to my own exact tastes, so witty, yet with the same shotty self esteem. Misery loves Amy

"Every time I close my eyes... I see your face"

	19-10-2003 02:18									#42
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...and how is my favorite Paki doing?

	19-10-2003 02:24									#43
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quote: Originally posted by Azazel Seriously, Spiff. I know that it's not realistic, but I am sure it happened to you, too.

It did. And I can't help but feel embarassed when I think about it now

More seriously, there is nothing wrong in feeling such a "pink love". There is a problem when you think it is the only way to be really in love, and when you try to have such feelings when you don't.

I know a few unstable people who really want to be in "pink love", even when their relationship is mostly about having sex with the person who happened to be the first cute/nice passerby.

	19-10-2003 02:28									#44
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that pink love, is actually something very primitive, isn't it?

For me, such pink love also carries around the prospect of great sex . I don't think that the latter somehow puts a dirty spot on the former.

I had such feeling. A feeling that you want to spend the rest of your life with this girl. You want her to have your children. *sigh* nevermind.

	19-10-2003 02:41									#45
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@ ... rest of your life with this girl ...

Dont be sooo naive...

	19-10-2003 02:51									#46
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quote: and how is my favorite Paki doing?

Musharraf?

I'm ok. Starting my 2nd year of law school. Just recently started a part time job at the Department of Labor (Employee Benefits Security Administration). I'm also spending loads of time with my ex-gf since I got back to Atlanta.