15-05-2005 06:27									#1
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... and don't be an idiot.

I'm feeling sick. I'm taking way too much stress from studying, job etc etc. And it's me, I'm the one doing it to myself. I've said numerous times that I like pressure, I function the best under pressure. It's true, but I need some ... mental vacation for a minute so I can enjoy the pressure again. I feel like I have so much to do I can't make it even if miracle happened. I've taken too much stuff to do for myself and I feel sick, physically sick. Tired also.

I just need to make it this and the next month to get over, I thought it was going to be smooth sailing, but it isn't and my head hurts all the time and I feel like vomiting sometimes too. Not to mention I'm not at my sharpest right now. I'm functioning in 85% efficiency the best.

	15-05-2005 06:29									#2
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You're mother smells like dingleberries!

	15-05-2005 06:55									#3
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Pekka, you're a classic type-A in a (so I've heard) type-B society.

Come to where you're welcome... come to America.

	15-05-2005 06:59									#4
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Pekka, you are the sexiest man alive.

Except for me and Sly.

	15-05-2005 07:04									#5
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Pekka, you're an incredible dufus and probably a borderline schizophrenic.

Hey, that made me feel nice!

	15-05-2005 07:06									#6
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quote: Originally posted by Boris Godunov borderline

	15-05-2005 07:07									#7
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thanks JohnT.. I appreciate your nice words, even more so when I whip my mouth like a... something that whips a lot, but it's just talk and not meant seriously. If someone thinks 'is this guy serious or what?' then I'm not serious. That's the golden rule.

Anyway yes I will come to America and that's why I'm working so hard now. I can't say working hard as in.. like some people work harder. Just mentally tired, it makes me feel like a loser if I miss a course, even though I took way too much courses this semester. If I would keep this pace up, I would get my master in science in 2 years, from the beginning to the end. I thought I had all the energy and knowledge, and I did for a long time but now it seems like I ran out of gas. It's not like I'm giving up or anything, it's just that I just need to take a mental break. Like now, I feel guilty for staying up and watching Rocky movies,I should be doing this project and reading for exam that I have to take two days but I just don't feel up to it right now and it's not because I'd be lazy, it's just that sometiems you just won't.. I don't say can't, I say won't..

Lots of talking here, what I mean to say is I feel guilty very easily and I feel the threat of the loser easily, even though it would be failing to peal the banana correctly blindfolded. I can't explain it better than that. But I'll be back, and I'm definitely not out, just like.. I'd need a 2 week vacation somewhere warm, beach, ocean, some fun. My working schedule is also (besides studying) straight from hell, but I'll manage. I'd feel even more guilty leeching my old man anymore for money.

I'm from a culture of guilty. You know like good lutherans are taught, by feeling guilty. But I'll break out of those chains!!!!!!

I'm afraid this message makes no sense. But everything doesn't have to make sense if you ask me. It just is, and some things just are.

	15-05-2005 07:09									#8
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OK NOW STOP WITH THE nice words! You're making me feel embarrased. As you should know, hey this is one for the what every American should know, is that complementing (even if lying to try to make them feel better) is worse than insulting them . It's true! You corner them. You are supposed to make understatements. No feedback is good feedback.

Let's talk something else. How do you handle the life when it starts overwhelming you with duties and schedules?

	15-05-2005 07:13									#9
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I don't get things done

Jon Miller

	15-05-2005 07:18									#10
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Jon Miller, that's how you handle things?

Well I guess it's true. Too much things to do makes you do even less if you had less to do to begin with. And one should remember that this is not the way things are done well.. with proper planning you can accomplish your goals so making impossible plans is just fooling oneself and making it worse. I still consider myself superhero though, and my only weakness is that I'm afraid of spiders. And snakes.

	15-05-2005 07:19									#11
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I guess the moral lesson is that even bears don't rage all the time, they take a break and eat berries every once in a while.

	15-05-2005 07:21									#12
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Cookies.

	15-05-2005 07:21									#13
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and mushrooms

don't forget the mushrooms

JM

	15-05-2005 08:09									#14
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Pekka, it's a real pleasure and privilidge to enjoy your company and that of so many interesting people here at Poly.

Here's to Pekka!

	15-05-2005 08:13									#15
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Agreed.

	15-05-2005 08:15									#16
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as I've said, enough with that stuff, it'll do no good anymore.

Let's talk about how you guys handle impossible tasks.

	15-05-2005 08:17									#17
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Well, I'm an American. We usually hire Mexicans for that sort of thing.

	15-05-2005 08:19									#18
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Surely it's spring even in Finland. Take a weekend off, go to a park or a seashore, spread a blanket and catch som rest.

	15-05-2005 08:24									#19
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Pekka, you make me laugh. A lot.

If I had the money I really would come to Finland and stalk you, you seem an interesting person to stalk

	15-05-2005 08:28									#20
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I'm with Verres, you are #1 on my "ppl I would most like to stalk" list

	15-05-2005 08:29									#21
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Pekka if I was a gril I'd hit you

	15-05-2005 08:33									#22
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Verres, I know you would. This is not a question to which we don't know the answer.

Dr Strangelove, are you serious? Seashore, in finland? Yeah we have it. Would you go to the beach in Iceland or northpole? But I might go to the summer cabin for few days when I get the time to, it's a real good recharging place.. I kind of use it as my cornerstone when things are not going my way and it seems like nothing works.. then I go there for few days just by myself, no alcohol, just myself, the woods and the sauna and the lake. And I'm always ready to come back and FIGHT, Kill and MAIM!

oh and folks, let's put it in perspective, it's not like I have been discovered with illness or someone died. I just ran out of gas. I'm not depressed. I just can't take this load for a while so I'll do as much as I can but leave something out. We'll see much I get done. I rather do things properly than everything half assed.. So it's nothing serious. Just tired and sick a little.

Also there are few.. confrontational type of things soon in front of me and I don't like those type of things so I'm kind of tired of it also even though it's still up ahead .. sucks.

Well, I'm going to catch some sleep now, make that healthy 5 hour thing so I can wake up to work on reading for the exams, meaning I'll sleep 10 hours in reality this time. I need the sleep, even though I've been sleeping normal.

	15-05-2005 08:44									#23
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Pekka if I was a woman I would let you have my children.

Because I am a man, I just have this to say, if you ever discover you're gay, let me know.

	15-05-2005 08:47									#24
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Pekka,

Suksi vittuun

	15-05-2005 09:00									#25
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Actually I'm just kidding. I was going to start a "Petition to get Pekka into the US Marine Corps" thread the other day.

We could certainly use your skills and more importantly, your enthusiasm.

	15-05-2005 17:41									#26
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VACATION! Damn vacations are nice. Glad I'm on mine right now... got another week left to boot.

	15-05-2005 17:59									#27
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i am in love

	15-05-2005 19:31									#28
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I like your shoelaces.

Unless they're red. Red shoe laces mean you're evil.

	15-05-2005 19:33									#29
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quote: Originally posted by Pekka Not to mention I'm not at my sharpest right now.

** insert a type of smart-ass comment here after Pekka gets better

	15-05-2005 19:35									#30
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Well Pekka, let me just say that in some ways, you remind me of me. That is the highest praise a man can possibly hope to get, so getting it is the best thing that ever happened to you

By the way, this thing you do... come to the forums when you're having a difficult time and letting it out... does it work? I'm curious as to the effectiveness of the method.