23-05-2003 17:54									#1
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I had the worst nightmare. Usually my nightmares are about wars I have never even been to, and everytime I lose my leg and my buddies leave me there. They say to me 'I'll carry you, don't worry!' and I go like 'No, I'm too heavy! You go! Leave me this is an order!' and they they like.. leave me. And I get so angry they actually left me and I just wanted to sound brave. Then the baddies come and they set up BBQ and I'm the main course. That's what I usually dream, OK but now I have gone to worse direction..

Last night I actually dreamed of computer problems. I needed more memory to my computer, so I called up this shop I use all the time (it's really good one too). Everytime I call, I can't remember what kind of memory I need! And other times I just become mute when I have to place the order. FINALLY when I get that done, It's late and I have to drive there fast, so I always get stuck in the freeway and I scream like a girl. Finally when I get off freeway, I just simply can't find the shop and I know where it is! The next day, same thing, I ask for driving instructions.. nothing works, I just can't get my memory boosted up, and it's killing me. The worrying thing is that this actually is a nightmare and I get anxiety and really sweatty too, I wake up with lost of breath etc.

Serioulsy, what would Freud say? Except get out more?

	23-05-2003 17:59									#2
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I had a dream that I was in Europe and my grandmother (who has been deceased since 1995) tried to run me over with her car, missed me and hit her retirement home. My cats lived at the retirement home, so I had to stop them from getting outside (they are indoor cats!).

I don't see any sense in it, at all.

	23-05-2003 18:11									#3
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Asher, that's an interesting one.. When I was a kid, I used to have this nightmare where one of my aunts tried to kill me. It was horrible.
Sidenote: my grandma passed in 1995 too.

	23-05-2003 18:17									#4
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I had a dream that I was in a hotel full of vampires. Lots of stress in that dream.

	23-05-2003 18:37									#5
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What would Freud say?

You want to have sex with your mother.

	23-05-2003 18:39									#6
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Pekka, your first dream means that you are spending too much effort trying to please other people and rea unsatisfied with the results. Don't be a doormat.

The second dream means that you need more memory. Or you're in love with your mother. Either one.

	23-05-2003 18:49									#7
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DaShi, I'm glad that you found something 'positive' from the first one

Yes, I do need more memory. But why was it a nighmare?

	23-05-2003 18:51									#8
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Have you ever had a lag just playing CivII? Now that's a nightmare.

	23-05-2003 21:35									#9
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quote: Originally posted by Pekka Serioulsy, what would Freud say? Except get out more?

It looks like you have built up a lot of anxiety and frustration inside. You may even have some sort of fear. It's like that time you help those people out and they didn't even thank you. Things like that build up inside you, and you don't know how to deal with these emotions. Not having a job, of course, doesn't help any.

You need to let yourself go a bit, don't keep dwelling on failures. Become a volunteer for a humanitarian or green organisationm of your choice. It should help you relief some of your mental pressures.

	23-05-2003 21:37									#10
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quote: Originally posted by paiktis22 I had a dream that I was in a hotel full of vampires. Lots of stress in that dream.

I had a dream similar to that. Not a hotal though, it was a forest. The sun was setting, and the vampires thought they had me. I destroy them all though, thanks to this artifact sword I have - it was created just to destroy vampires. MUHAHAHA!

	23-05-2003 22:52									#11
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quote: You want to have sex with your mother.

It's a stereotype of Freud. I wouldn't expect anything else, but (unless there is someone who finds a closer connection) this gives more information about Freud than about you. I could rather imagine that dreams like "being killed by a female relative" are related to sex.

As a kid, I used to have repeated dreams of being persecuted by some sort of witch. When she was about catching me, I had some sort of blackout (or better redout). I guess this is the result of a too early sex education (I was 4 at that time). When I was adolescent, the dream repeated once more and this time I was able to escape. After that, I had a nightmare only once when I was working in a retirement home. Normally, if a dream turns out to become uncomfortable I'm able to convince myself that I'm dreaming and get curious about the outcome.
The test failed only once when I wanted something to be reality.

	23-05-2003 22:54									#12
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UR, wow, your analyzis was so accurate it's scary .

	24-05-2003 08:52									#13
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quote: Originally posted by Pekka UR, wow, your analyzis was so accurate it's scary .

My SO does that for a living, so she rubs off on me a bit

It'd be good if you become a volunteer. You're a good man and you like to help, so why help jackarses who don't even appreciate your efforts?

	24-05-2003 08:56									#14
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quote: Originally posted by Urban Ranger I had a dream similar to that. Not a hotal though, it was a forest. The sun was setting, and the vampires thought they had me. I destroy them all though, thanks to this artifact sword I have - it was created just to destroy vampires. MUHAHAHA!

yeah well I was very scared... I managed to just creep out of that damned hotel

not too hard cause the hotel was monodimensional. oh yeah, I didnt tell you that. I could just see the facade, and in the place of open rooms, there was soil and the vampires were sleeping at that time. still pretty scary.

	24-05-2003 09:00									#15
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quote: thanks to this artifact sword I have - it was created just to destroy vampires

UR:

You need to watch less Buffy.

	24-05-2003 09:01									#16
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not like in another dream where I had actually entered the brotherhood of the vampires, yeah... and then I became a renegade vampire because I didnt want to drink blood to survive... yep and the archpriestess of the vampires tried to hunt me down (she was pretty damn sexy too) and we had a very spectacular fight. yeah, a whole scenario.... I remember being fascinated with my powers hyper jumping, flying kung fu kicking etc, i was one mean bad ass vampire yep. still the archpriestess was very powerful too. I dont know the result of the spectacular ulrta fighting cause I woke up

	24-05-2003 09:01									#17
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quote: Originally posted by obiwan18 You need to watch less Buffy.

That shouldn't be too hard to do now that the series has ended.

	24-05-2003 21:31									#18
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quote: Originally posted by obiwan18 UR: You need to watch less Buffy.

Buffy wasn't born yet.

	24-05-2003 21:32									#19
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quote: Originally posted by paiktis22 not like in another dream where I had actually entered the brotherhood of the vampires, yeah... and then I became a renegade vampire because I didnt want to drink blood to survive... yep and the archpriestess of the vampires tried to hunt me down (she was pretty damn sexy too) and we had a very spectacular fight. yeah, a whole scenario.... I remember being fascinated with my powers hyper jumping, flying kung fu kicking etc, i was one mean bad ass vampire yep. still the archpriestess was very powerful too. I dont know the result of the spectacular ulrta fighting cause I woke up

Did you have that dream after watching Blade?

	24-05-2003 21:35									#20
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UR, I don't know man.. I don't know if you remember, but about a year ago I tried to find volunteer work like maybe mine clearing or something like that, but I wasn't lucky. So I don't know if you just remembered it or if you were just fishing. I don't know what I'm going to do if I fail at the entrance exams to uni (little over week, I'm scared allready), and I have thought again that maybe volunteer work could be what I should do.. I don't know anything, everything is black to me and if I fail I don't know if I'll be hospitalized

	24-05-2003 21:40									#21
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Well if you are looking for some rather specialised volunteer work, it's a bit more difficult than more generic ones. I don't think there are lots of mines in Finland, but of course I am totally out of my depth here.

Are there community colleges there if you couldn't go into uni?

	24-05-2003 21:44									#22
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UR, I was thinkign about going to work in foreign country you know, there are some spots in Europe, or go even further.. It can be some other work too.. anything, I don't mind and not being picky about it.

No, not like in the US. We have different systems.. they suck. It's either success (little percentage gets in where I'm going), or you fail and you're out, and you can start your life as a drunk and go live in the streets.

	24-05-2003 21:56									#23
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How bad it is to go work without a university degree? Do you get paid a lot less?

	24-05-2003 21:58									#24
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no work. It's VERY bad. I can't emphasize enough.

	24-05-2003 22:00									#25
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Try this :
VERY

	24-05-2003 22:10									#26
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Yes. Plus, all my friends are studying somewhere and even though I still have few buddies living closer, you know it's pretty lonely sometimes. I'm looking forward this so I can learn (I am into studying, believe it or not) and live the student life, meet people, have new friends, have fun and stuff like that. Normal stuff. I have always thought this is me way of going with my life, always. I've tried once, spent little over one year in military missing out 2 chances and now 22 years old, soon 23. I need to get in! Still though less than 100 people will get in where I want to go, and there are many times that trying it, all scoring high in the test, because well, there are not so much people trying in who don't have a clue what they're doing. So everyone is pretty much enough skilled to get in and do well. I know I would do well in there and that I would love it, absolutely love it. I feel it and I know it.

Now, if I don't get in? What then? I consider myself as a strong person both mentally and physically. I've been taking lots of pressures with this, and still functioning. I took it last year, the disappointment. I thought I got in, I was sure.. but I was in the line, scoring good but just not enough. 2 points.. only 2 fricking points. That's like nothing.

I felt like my brain stopped working and heart exploding through my body last time I got the letter. I got over it thinking 'next time I'll make it, I just got to be patient'. Now I have waited a whole year for this, and I can't miss this time. If I do, there is no next time! Then, I'm without degree, I can't go continue my studies at foreign countries, let alone work in them and doing what I want. THis is what I want to do. It's tough to get in, I know it, so I can't be sure if I'll make it this time. I don't know what happens, I'm being honest now, I don't know what happens to me if I fail. I know something is going to happen to me mentally, but I don't know if I can take it anymore. I don't know what I become after that, I don't know what the hell I should do, but one thing is sure, I can't live to my dreams. And I know I'd do well in there too, so it's not like I can't hack it. It will be the biggest celebration of my life and huge gimpy of my back, or the worst bitter defeat ever and I don't know what happens then.. I can't predict.

	24-05-2003 22:19									#27
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quote: Originally posted by Urban Ranger Did you have that dream after watching Blade?

Hehe nope I don't even know what that movie is.

	24-05-2003 22:32									#28
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Spiffor,

Snort. Cackle.


Pekka,

Regardless of the outcome, don't lose your hopes and your dreams. Often it is just luck of the draw, which has nothing to do with your abilities. Best of luck with the exam, I hope you make it this time.

	25-05-2003 01:06									#29
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Well if I fail, I fail and that's it. I'll get knocked down seriously, but I'll get up.. Then I just have to get a new dream to follow I guess. But I haven't given up yet, I'll get there and I'm not going down without serious battle!

	25-05-2003 04:45									#30
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quote: Originally posted by Urban Ranger Spiffor, Snort. Cackle.

I have pondered it before underlining, but I think the extreme emphasis Pekka wanted was enough of an excuse to underline the 'VERY'


Paiktis :
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