19-02-2005 22:43									#1
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Do you have any?

I was just watching Doors.. the movie, and Jim gets maced in the face backstage before a gig and I immidiately felt great warmth inside and eagerness to be maced in my face too. It's not real, I don't really want anyone to mace me. But there was strong and weird but good feeling about it.. hells yeah mace me too mother****er! COME ON!

I'm not afraid of pain really. I never was, and I guess never will. I mean pain itself, of course it hurts. But thinking about hurt makes me body all warm inside. Like experimenting.. i wonder how much that hurts.. I wonder what type of pain that causes me.. it's not challenge type of thing where I'd wonder if I can take it or not. It's just pure fascination. It doesn't dominate me or my personality though. What about you?

	19-02-2005 22:59									#2
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I often consider jumping under the train as it arrives in the station. This has nothing to do with suicide (I don't want to kill myself), but some fascination with the act I guess.

	19-02-2005 23:07									#3
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Right right.. or driving a car, you think what if you pull the car to the other lane hitting a huge truck. You don't actually do it, or seriously conplemtate doing it, you just think it. There's no sadness or pain invovled in the thought.. just fascination. I have no fascination of hurting other people, or actually hurting myself, just the thought of getting some hurt.

	19-02-2005 23:53									#4
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quote: Do you have any? I was just watching Doors.. the movie, and Jim gets maced in the face backstage before a gig and I immidiately felt great warmth inside and eagerness to be maced in my face too. It's not real, I don't really want anyone to mace me. But there was strong and weird but good feeling about it.. hells yeah mace me too mother****er! COME ON! I'm not afraid of pain really. I never was, and I guess never will. I mean pain itself, of course it hurts. But thinking about hurt makes me body all warm inside. Like experimenting.. i wonder how much that hurts.. I wonder what type of pain that causes me.. it's not challenge type of thing where I'd wonder if I can take it or not. It's just pure fascination. It doesn't dominate me or my personality though. What about you?

Does this mean you're going to be into S/M? Because that would beat Palestinian leather jackets and all that.

	19-02-2005 23:59									#5
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Stabing myself in the eye with scissors.

	20-02-2005 00:00									#6
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scissors are extremely dangerous. You can stab yourself with them with EASE. Be careful.

	20-02-2005 00:01									#7
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quote: Originally posted by Spiffor I often consider jumping under the train as it arrives in the station. This has nothing to do with suicide (I don't want to kill myself), but some fascination with the act I guess.

Its not uncommon, many people get that feeling in some way. I've experienced the "I could if I wanted to" power from it. Needless to say I've never wanted to.

	20-02-2005 00:08									#8
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quote: Originally posted by Pekka Do you have any? I was just watching Doors.. the movie, and Jim gets maced in the face backstage before a gig and I immidiately felt great warmth inside and eagerness to be maced in my face too. It's not real, I don't really want anyone to mace me. But there was strong and weird but good feeling about it.. hells yeah mace me too mother****er! COME ON! I'm not afraid of pain really. I never was, and I guess never will. I mean pain itself, of course it hurts. But thinking about hurt makes me body all warm inside. Like experimenting.. i wonder how much that hurts.. I wonder what type of pain that causes me.. it's not challenge type of thing where I'd wonder if I can take it or not. It's just pure fascination. It doesn't dominate me or my personality though. What about you?

You are weird.

None that springs to mind. Dauphin is right, it is amazing how easy it is to get squished, but our brain is 'wired' as such to stop us doing anything silly like that fortunately...it takes some quite extreme duress to break this down...

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I do find bizarre anatomical piercing to be most cringeworthy...at times it is enough to make me physically recoil.

	20-02-2005 00:12									#10
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PH, no, you are the weird one and this is a fact and you can take my word for it as it is my bond and that bond is stronger than the sword or the pen combined and none of yous word is that strong but mine is.

	20-02-2005 00:18									#11
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quote: Originally posted by Pekka PH, no, you are the weird one and this is a fact and you can take my word for it as it is my bond and that bond is stronger than the sword or the pen combined and none of yous word is that strong but mine is.

Well having a fetish about being sprayed in the face with mace is a pretty cast-iron definition of deviant...

	20-02-2005 00:35									#12
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Hmmm...

I sometimes really want to pick a fight with people. I rarely do. Infact - I never do. I'm really afraid of conflicts and I don't like getting punched.

It is something like what you've seen in "fightclub" but it began before I saw it, I think.


I was at this concert two weeks ago, and we (3 friends) were in the front of the stage with a girl, and the rest of the public was constantly chocking us and pushing us to the stage (cause they really wanted to be infront, like we were).

Not to mention it was a metal concert so there was alot of Fogo fighting going on (people push shove and hit each other during fast paced bits).

So two of us (actually, mostly me) behaved like body guards for the girl, and continuously shoved back and even hit all the hords of fans that were pushing on us from behind, making sure that the girl was not crushed. It was really terribly fun

	20-02-2005 00:47									#13
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I don't like pain. at least not physical pain.

	20-02-2005 01:24									#14
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My own morbid fascinations are bad enough to where I've considered seeing a shrink about them, so I wont bother you guys with them.

	20-02-2005 01:34									#15
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most of my fascinations involve me inflicting pain on others, not myself.

sometimes I have fascinations with - err I better not say this here.

	20-02-2005 02:48									#16
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quote: Originally posted by Pekka Do you have any?

yes

	20-02-2005 02:50									#17
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When I see a baby in a carriage or someone walking with a cane or something i often think of pushing them or hitting them, I don't want to do it at all but I just think it.

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quote: Originally posted by Spiffor I often consider jumping under the train as it arrives in the station. This has nothing to do with suicide (I don't want to kill myself), but some fascination with the act I guess.

Like sticking your hand in a circular saw, I think about it , then shudder and wonder why I thought about it!

Glad its not just me!

	20-02-2005 16:15									#19
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reds4ever, nah I think it's normal. The only thing is that you need to not let it take away too much focus in task, so that you don't end up with your hand in the circular saw anyway .

PH, no I don't have a fetish getting maced in the face. It was a momentarily thing. It felt like a great idea for that moment. I was fired up.. then it went away just as fast as it came to me in the first place. I wouldn't mace myself you know.

	20-02-2005 17:04									#20
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When I'm near to cliffs, I not infrequently get an impulse to jump down. I've resisted it this far.

	20-02-2005 17:11									#21
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Yeah I get that as well, i'm really curious of what's it's like the moment your in the air and flying out, of course impact in inevitable but just that moment in the air, I wonder what it feels like.

	20-02-2005 17:16									#22
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Well, you can do skydiving and not hit the ground lethally..

	20-02-2005 17:19									#23
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Or bungee, or cliffdiving.

	20-02-2005 18:46									#24
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You guys are just strange - or I am, and you're normal.

	20-02-2005 21:37									#25
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quote: Originally posted by Last Conformist When I'm near to cliffs, I not infrequently get an impulse to jump down. I've resisted it this far.

Yeah I get that on tall buildings, castle battlements, that kind of thing.

	20-02-2005 22:14									#26
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Same here, Immortal Wombat.

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If you search hard enough on the Net, you can find people who have fantasies about being cooked.

	20-02-2005 23:56									#28
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quote: Originally posted by Immortal Wombat Yeah I get that on tall buildings, castle battlements, that kind of thing.

When I'm on top of battlements I have an insatiable urge to poor boiling oil on the people below.

	21-02-2005 00:56									#29
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More like Immortal Lemming methinks

	21-02-2005 01:02									#30
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quote: Originally posted by Pekka Do you have any?

I sometimes have the urge, when I'm coming up on a busy road, just drive right into the middle of the traffic. It freaks me out.