18-05-2005 08:25									#1
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That's what I'm currently in the process of doing. I have some much shite going wrong in my life right now that last week I even contemplated driving my car off the mopac bridge. I feel like I'm loosing my fu*king mind. I can't take the stress anymore and to top it all off I just found out that the lump in my throat that's been in remission for the last 15 years is now back.

What fuc*ing else!!!!! No computer access at home so this is my only post. Not really sure what I'm going to do anymore but I know i just can't keep doing this. needed to vent........

	18-05-2005 08:28									#2
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Don't Panic

It's only an illusion

Life is what you make it... enjoy

and remember

Don't Panic

think it through

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	18-05-2005 08:33									#3
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need to panic need to get away and leaving tomorrow to go to my dad's. Husband is an ass and has basically gone through most of the money my father left me swearing to pay it back and the cancer's back.....this, dad, everything is just way way way to much to deal with. may post tomorrow if mom still has computer or I don't drive off the road....am in a really really bad place right now. really bad place.

	18-05-2005 08:34									#4
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We need you here, Tia.

	18-05-2005 08:36									#5
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Relax sweetie. It's not worth the stress.

	18-05-2005 08:38									#6
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What happened to the money?

Do the kids still have their education funds?

	18-05-2005 08:38									#7
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it's not stress anymore

it's anxiety, I'm there too

it's a type of fear that seems to consume and make it impossible to anything you know it right...

the only thing that stops me, and that stops Tia is

Resiliance.

She is going to stay positive and figure out a way to fix the problem...

it won't be easy, but it's possible

Anger needs to be curbed

	18-05-2005 08:42									#8
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That's terrible Tia, I hope things turn around for you. Don't jump to conclusion on the bump in your throat, could be nothing...

	18-05-2005 08:45									#9
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Have some strawberries and dark chocolate.

	18-05-2005 08:51									#10
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Become a citizen of Canada. They have socialised medicine

	18-05-2005 09:17									#11
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Hang in there Tia!!






Remember that dragons have much greater determination and resilience than mere humans.

	18-05-2005 09:27									#12
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sorry your having so much stress in your life.
be nice to yourself....
you're a pretty strong woman , im sure you will
overcome whats facing you now.

	18-05-2005 09:45									#13
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Sorry to hear this.

Let's look at it reasonably... the cancer thing... odds are it can be taken cared of again. Right?

About husbands being buttwipes, well.. I guess odds are that'll happen too if married!

About the money.. who knows. It can turn out still.. he says he promises, so who knows, maybe he's good for it. We can't know that yet.

I don't know about the other problems you are now facing/have faced, so I can't talk about any of this. But as an outsider, this is what it looks to me. Pressuring and shitty situation, yet so common.. not to make it sound any less than it is though. These can be all beat basically. You haven't lost any of these battles yet. Just remember that. You'll get stronger in time when you are ready for it. I know it's like when people say to other people when they have divorced/broke up with someone, that the world is full of people, better suitable for them and they'll be OK again and even better. It sounds stupid, but it's true.. it's true. I don't know about your situation, but maybe you could take just a little quality time just for yourself and recharge your batteries a little bit, enough so you can wake up to another day with feeling of that something good will happen. Because they will happen.. usually crap comes in waves too, you get hit with one big one and then the other waves come too when you really don't need them. But that's the way it is sometimes.. so, just remember that you haven't lost any of these battles yet, and that there will be good mornings ahead, you'll be stronger too and feeling better. Sounds stupid, but it's true.

	18-05-2005 10:29									#14
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Keep this remedy in your back pocket in case your really need it. I used it years ago when I was thinking of driving off the road.

Dump everything and move to Hawaii. It gets rid of most of your problems -- just like suicide -- but it's not as fatal.

	18-05-2005 10:55									#15
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Find a hole in the ground and sit in there for awhile. It's very relaxing.

	18-05-2005 19:09									#16
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Dashi, we're trying to keep her away from a hole in the ground.

	18-05-2005 19:14									#17
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IF depressed Then Chocolate

doesnt solve anything but makes you more relax...

i can give you some more ideas to become relax but they are illegal in the states.

	18-05-2005 19:27									#18
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quote: Originally posted by Tiamat That's what I'm currently in the process of doing. I have some much shite going wrong in my life right now that last week I even contemplated driving my car off the mopac bridge. I feel like I'm loosing my fu*king mind. I can't take the stress anymore and to top it all off I just found out that the lump in my throat that's been in remission for the last 15 years is now back. What fuc*ing else!!!!! No computer access at home so this is my only post. Not really sure what I'm going to do anymore but I know i just can't keep doing this. needed to vent........

Have a drink. Makes everything fade away into irrelevance for a few blissful moments.

	19-05-2005 05:39									#19
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Colon will give you the chocolates.

Driving off cliffs is not a viable solution.

Venting is acceptable, tho.

	19-05-2005 09:54									#20
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quote: Originally posted by chegitz guevara Dashi, we're trying to keep her away from a hole in the ground.

Sorry, I can't help with that then.

	20-05-2005 01:53									#21
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Sorry to hear this Tiamat - i felt pretty awful for you about your dad. And now this cancer thing and troubles at home. One thing i find is all this stuff nearly always seems to come in one go('bad news comes in threes' my gran would say to me).

Just stay strong - there are people around you who need you.

I find it helps to think this when in these type of situations. Sometimes life is a Bi*ch and you just have to keep going to sail through the rough weather.

Best wishes and hope you get back to normality soon.

	20-05-2005 02:45									#22
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quote: Originally posted by Theben Colon will give you the chocolates. Driving off cliffs is not a viable solution. Venting is acceptable, tho.

*gives a chocolate filled with creamy caramel*

	20-05-2005 02:48									#23
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Tia, I´m sorry to hear you life is ****ed up right now. Hopefully it will work it self out in a while. Hang in there!

	20-05-2005 02:59									#24
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Hang in there Tia. You've overcome much worse problems than this

	20-05-2005 11:24									#25
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So ok, i'm still here. Long a$$ drive to my dad's house over 6 hours but aren't you proud of me no driving off the road.

Yes, chocolate would be good along with ganga but....and the lump thing. In 1990 they took a lump out of my throat the size of a grapefruit. Been in remission ever since but now it's enlarging again so far 1cm and pulling on the scar tissue which makes for a very uncomfortable neck. Trying to shrink it with medication but that makes me dizzy, sick to stomach, direeeeah and loose hair and the upshot to that is if it doesn't work then they will still have to go back in and do surgery

So I'm here at parents house for the next four or five days and it's 1:30 in the morning so I guess I'll see you tomorrow.

Oh and at the hole in the ground....I saw Seinfeld to with the weird guy going to the park and sitting in the hole. But you right.....am trying to stay away from the hole in the ground thing.

	20-05-2005 11:25									#26
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Thanks for the update Tia -- good to see that you haven't driven off the road.

	20-05-2005 11:30									#27
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Nope childrens trust funds are in tact but did I mention that the reason I'm pissed at the husband for going through the money is due to a gambling problem....yeah, I think I forgot to mention that. He's discovered game rooms in our town with slot machines that you put money in and they pay out in cash. See the way I think is instead of taking it and gambling with it why in the hell don't you just FUC*ING LIGHT IT ON FIRE

	20-05-2005 11:31									#28
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Well, about lighting it on fire . . . . .





you have dragon powers, right?

	20-05-2005 12:32									#29
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quote: Originally posted by Verres Have a drink. Makes everything fade away into irrelevance for a few blissful moments.

Alcohol is a depressant and it is never good to give a depressed person a depressant.

	20-05-2005 12:35									#30
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quote: Originally posted by Tiamat Nope childrens trust funds are in tact but did I mention that the reason I'm pissed at the husband for going through the money is due to a gambling problem....yeah, I think I forgot to mention that.

He borrows your $$$ to gamble? I think you need to stop lending him anymore.