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orangesoda
Nov 2001 time: 22:36
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It doesn't read like a 'look at me'. His post sounds more like he was trying to relieve some of the guilt he was feeling by explaining how this was what he wants, what he thinks is best for him, and not something to fear (levity, smilies). The same things that were probably going through his head over and over to make his facing death possible.
You have to understand that to him, in his state of mind, it is perfectly valid justification for his actions. He was approaching it as if he were talking to himself, comforting himself, because that's what he understood. And that's how he tried to comfort his friends.
I can't blame him for where it happened, even though it's certainly not easy on the family. I've been in that situation, and it just never occured to me how it would affect my family. According to a post later in the thread, he was raised Mormon but didn't believe in it even though he respects the religion and it sounds like his family is Mormon. I know this was a major issue with me as there is a very real rift that forms because you are no longer included (self imposed exclusion because of your beliefs) in a large portion of your family's (and community's) lives. Add in the depression which makes that gulf larger, and his family might not have seemed as real as his online friends to him.
I feel sorry for his family and friends. The **** is always on someone, and he's passed it along now. It's not fair either way.
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